Webster’s defines bootstrap in three ways; as a noun, as an adjective, and as a transitive verb.
Main Entry: 3bootstrap
Function: transitive verb
: to promote or develop by initiate and effort with little or no assistance <bootstrapped herself to the top>
Sometimes I feel like I am completely capable of bootstrapping my day. I get up, get going, and get a lot accomplished. These days fly by and when they are over, I’m tired but not exhausted. I’m actually somewhat energized.
Then there are days when it just seems impossible to get things going. When I’ve got tasks that need to be done, but I just can’t get it together to make them happen. I can sit for hours in front of the computer and not accomplish a damn thing. Eight hours can seem like an eternity. On these days, I’m physically and mentally exhausted at the end even though I’ve not accomplished anything.
Somehow that seems incongruous, but I know it to be true. And I know why. When I can’t get started my sense of guilt kicks in. Nothing good comes from that.
I’ve had two such days this week, and today doesn’t look to be shaping up a whole lot better so far – despite getting out to the gym at 6:00 AM. Where is my Mojo? Maybe this is a post holiday slump? Maybe its a sign that 12 years in the same field is enough? I don’t know.
But I do know I’ve got to break this streak.