Every now and then, you get transported back to a place and time that is simply special. If you are lucky enough to become a parent for the first time, I have no doubts that you will absolutely adore the way your child falls asleep on you (completely involuntarily) during the first 6 months to a year. At some point though, this simply stops happening. As part of their growing up they are better able to regulate their sleep and as a result they do not collapse on you. If you are like me, you’ll initially feel relief when this stops happening. Then you’ll miss it.
Mr. Grey has been sleeping through the night for some time now. He’s also been able to go to sleep without any one in the room since he was about three months old. But tonight he’s a bit under the weather (so is his mom). He was very upset from the time I got home until he went to sleep since he is not felling well. I spent a great deal of time with him tonight trying to calm him down. He drank his milk in my arms. He sat in my arms and watched Thomas. He still was not settled. So we rocked.
It’s been a long time since I rocked my boy to sleep. But that’s what I did tonight. And it felt good. My baby boy is not a baby anymore (a fact I witnessed when he stood on my chest and I held him steady with my hands — arms completely outstretched instead of bent at the elbows like when he couldn’t hold his own weight on his knees). And yet, he fell asleep in my arms.
And that, my friends, was simply marvelous.